Connor always loved playing make-believe, especially with me, his Mama. I think every mother of little boys looks forward to the day her son says he wants to marry you or in Connor’s case, “I’M GONNA MARRY YOU!”. He used to tell me this all the time and it was the sweetest thing ever. Tom would explain to him that I was already married to him and Connor didn’t care one bit. He was determined to marry me no matter what, even if it meant sending Dad away! Connor and I had planned every little detail. We were going to have a pumpkin themed wedding. Connor loved pumpkins and everything Halloween!!! He would wear his Superman costume of course. I would wear a Wonder Woman costume and have a beautiful yellow dandelion bouquet. Connor always picked dandelions out of the yard for me! We would play the best music; Bruno Mars, Michael Jackson, CCR, Lynyrd Skynrd, Tom Petty, The Nightmare Before Christmas soundtrack, etc. We would dance to our song, “Have You Ever Seen the Rain” by CCR. We would have a picnic dinner and sit on blankets on the grass. The food was the most important thing! There would be hotdogs, lots of pickles, fruit salad, root beer, and a big pumpkin cake. And we would live happily ever after, driving off into the sunset in his little blue Cozy Coupe car!
When we found out about Connor’s diagnosis, we made a bucket list. The last thing on the list was keeping the promise I made to Connor to have a make-believe wedding and we did just that. On Wednesday February 20, 2019, we got married at home in Connor’s hospital bed. Tom officiated for us and I can’t put into words how much it meant to me. I had picked out a very special song when Connor was little for the mother-son dance that I would play and we would dance to at his wedding, if he ever wanted to get married. I played this song on my phone as I took his sweet little hand in mine and we “danced”.